I had a really bizarre dream earlier on this morning.I dream that i was pregnant. and yes, i was only 17 years-old in my dream.Its kinda like I had a fling with a guy, and after a few weeks, i found out i was pregnant. I told that guy about it, but he didn’t really do anything- not like i was expecting him to. Then later, I confessed to my mom that i was pregnant and prepared myself for a good lashing. However, my mom just told me to take good care of myself and blah- in other words, taking good care for the fetus.
At first, I was quite excited on having a child (yes , i am crazy) but eventually, i start to feel the stress and burden weighing down on me. I am only 17 and i am pregnant! No more going out, skipping my school for a year, no hanging out till late nights. But before I know it, I’ve became attached to my baby, I was also looking out for him; afraid that one day I’ll have a miscarriage. Whenever I told my mom that I was afraid that my fetus has become a stillborn, I will miraculously feel the fetus’s heartbeat as though he was reassuring me that he was fine.
Yeah, and before i knew it, i was awake.
I miss the heartbeat of my baby. I know it’s a dream, but it seems so real.
i feel so empty now.
